Monthly Archives: May 2007

My Task Feels Too Big


 My back has a few things to say. . .

  •  I can walk without a limp. Yeah!

  •  The lower back is still “stiff” so I can’t sit long. Non-yeah.

  •  I still tire easily and need frequent rests. Non-yeah.

  • My dd is here to help me. Yeah!

BUT, I have so much to do that I don’t know where to start. Doing work 15-30 minutes at a time seems like I’ll never get done.

OK – I’m even afraid it won’t get done.

BUT – I saw this today and know that God was behind it:

“Be strong and courageous, and do the work.
Don’t be discouraged by the size of the task.

For the Lord God, my God is with you.
He will not fail you or forsake you.
He will see to it that all the work related to
the temple of the Lord is finished correctly.
1 Chronicles 28:20

Now I could procrastinate further by . . .

  • Calling someone for encouragement.

  • Reading about procrastination.

  • Eating.

Or I can believe . . .

  • God will not fail me.

  • God will not forsake me.

  • He will see to it that all my work is finished correctly.

Even if it is 15 minutes at a time.


This Is My Now


There was a time
I packed my dreams away
Living in a shell
Hiding from myself
There was a time
When I was so afraid
I thought I’d reached the end
But Baby that was then
‘Cuz I am made of more than my yesterdays.

This is my now.
I’m breathing in the moment.
As I look around,
I can’t believe the love I see.
My fear is behind me.
Gone are the shadows and doubt
That was then.
This is my now.

And I have the courage like never before. Yeah.
I settled for Less
But I’m ready for more
Ready for more

This is my now.
And I’m breathing in the moment.
As I look around,
I can’t believe the love I see.
My fear is behind me.
Gone are the shadows and doubt
That was then.
This is my now.

And I’m breathing in the moment.
As I look around,
I can’t believe the love I see.
My fear is behind me.
Gone are the shadows and doubt
That was then.
This is my now.
This is my now.

Written by Jeff Peabody and Scott Krippayne.

Go here to hear a preview of Jordin Sparks (from American Idol) singing this song. Awesome!

Wahoo – I’m feeling much better


My chiropractor said I’d feel better by the end of this week. And I do!

He has been treating me for 3 weeks. My back and knee pain are very manageable this morning. The water (walking in the pool) and heat (going in the jacuzzi and steam room) therapy twice a day has been very beneficial. Dr. Bambus suggested doing this as much as I can.

So if you call and I don’t answer the phone, I’m at the pool! Doctor’s orders. 🙂

My sinus infection is almost gone.

My dd is coming today for 2 weeks. She and a friend will read my school work to me and take dictation for my papers.

Thank you ALL so much for your prayers.

And yes, I will take it easy. Between my dd and sista I doubt I’ll be able to get away with much.

Why is it God always gets the blame?


George: “God would never let me be successful. He’d kill me first. He’ll never let me be happy.”
Therapist: “I thought you didn’t believe in God?”
George: “I do for the bad things.”
– George and his therapist, in “The Pilot”

This healing stuff is strange – it hasn’t been a linear process and evidently that is normal. But as I lay here day after day, sometimes I feel depressed.

And wonder what God is up to.

But, I hope I never get to the place where I blame God. I want to live this life the right way. And to me that means accepting the good and the bad. Persevereing. With a grateful attitude.

Sometimes we sing a song in church that says, “God gives and takes away.” And as creator God that is His right.

Job acquiesced to God. He never sinned by . . .

Sometimes I get mad, moody and questioning. But I hope I learn and use two lessons I’ve learned from Job. . .

Cause really, even if God never gave me another good thing, He has given me everything.

2 Reasons why a back problem NEEDS a fitness club


Wahoo! Last Friday a friend got me a 2 week pass to a fitness club. Why is that good news?

  1. I’ve been able to walk in the pool without pain (much anyway) to my back and knee.
  2. The steam bath and jacuzzi relax my muscles wonderfully.

It’s only been a week, but the doctor can tell a difference in my lower back. However, the upper back is still the same.  😦

That’s probably because I felt sooooo good on Monday I went to school. My back has been letting me know all week that was a bad move. And my lower back is still hurting this a.m.

Please pray for . . .

  • speedy healing
  • wise decision-making
  • progress on my homework and papers for school
  • patient, peacful attitude

Thank you everyone for your prayers and meals.

Pain burns calories but I don’t recommend it as a diet aide


1 Week Down & 1 More To Go.

I have been really good about staying prone all week – of course pain is a great motivator. Yesterday my lower back, left hip and left leg hurt a lot. I feel much better today!

My friend Chris (who is a physical therapy assistant) gave me some tips:

  • 3 exercises: pelvic tilt, side neck stretch and tush squeeze (to put it politely).
  • How to properly get off the couch or bed from a lying position.
  • Pain burns calories.That could be why I’ve been so hungry even though I am not doing much anything. I am very grateful for the meals that are being brought.  🙂
  • Water exercise (only walking at this point) might be easier on my body than walking. I need to check out Hagan Park’s pool and see when it’s open and what the cost is.
  • Use my exercise ball as a chair in front of the computer. That’s what I’ve been sitting on every time I typed this (3-5 minutes at a time). It is more comfortable than my desk chair, but still 5 minutes is my max limit.
  • Stop and think. Even when I feel less pain, limit my movement.

I go back to the chiropractor tomorrow. I’m looking forward to what he had to say about my progress. Thanks for your prayers.

Know what I miss most? You all, doing my homework, and Googling.